Hallo,
So as an introduction, I'm a computer programmer who enjoys consuming rather a lot of, for want of a better term, strange media. B-movies, indie horror video games, urban legends, that kind of thing. Especially actual dreamlike things (stuff like Eraserhead, LSD Dream Emulator or Yume Nikki which this blog is named after). I find them to be kind of a fascinating insight into kind of... the raw thoughts of whoever was making them. No context, no plot, just a stream of consciousness... thing which I find very personal and thoroughly interesting.
Anyways, being a programmer and maybe a little but of an introvert lead me to spend rather a lot of time behind a computer, meaning I get rather a lot of time to indulge in such things.
I've also, throughout my life, been somewhat prone to nightmares.
I need to stress at this point, because I feel that it's really important, that in my day to day life everything is pretty great. I've got a steady job, a decent house, a wonderful fiancée, a car, all that good stuff. I'm not what I'd consider particularly depressed or otherwise distressed about any aspect of life in itself, I've just always had really strange dreams or really unpleasant ones. I figured that maybe I should document them, if I can remember them. I don't recall dreaming all that often but the ones I do remember tend to be pretty interesting.
If you're interested in dreams, that is. I mean, I've always been told that it's not a good idea to discuss dreams with other people in casual conversation because the contents of your own head aren't that interesting to people, but this is the Internet. What I dream about has to at least be as interesting as the least interesting Twilight fanfic.
-Some time in early January-
I'm not a fan of LARP in general. I find it hard to disassociate myself from my own personality and invariably become myself in a funny hat, get bored, get drunk and ignore the plot.
I dream that I have found a way to enjoy LARP. I install a program on my computer that allows me to follow a session in a first-person shooter style spectator mode, being an invisible observer, flying through the venue and listening in on people's conversations. I'm happy with the knowledge that at the end of the day I can cook myself a decent hot meal easily and can sleep in my own bed.
-11/01/2014-
I normally fall asleep listening to soft spoken role play videos. People pretending to conduct eye exams, run day spas, mix drinks and suchlike. It's not for the content, I just find that listening to someone softly rambling about a particular topic is a good source of white noise that usually makes me pretty drowsy.
I dream that I wake up in the middle of the night. I have earplugs in (which is normal) but I can hear someone speaking just behind my left ear. It's relaxing until I realise that I'm not wearing any headphones and shouldn't be able to hear anybody at all. The voice won't stop speaking and I can't determine what it's saying. I roll over so my left ear is on the pillow, it continues speaking. I realise that I have developed what I think in the dream is schizophrenia (but by my understanding of it in the dream is probably more like multiple personality disorder). I realise that I'll never be able to keep this voice from talking to me constantly.
That wakes me up.
I fall asleep again and dream that the person sleeping next to me is not my fiancée, that they just look like my fiancée. I know for sure that if I turn around to face them, they will turn into some kind of terrible creature that, being in bed, I have absolutely no chance of escaping from. It will most likely kill me.
I wake up. I'm still dreaming. I realise that my fiancée has been replaced with some kind of terrible creature.
I wake up. I'm still dreaming. I realise that my fiancée has been replaced with some kind of terrible creature. I hear a voice whispering just behind my left ear.
I actually wake up.
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